Sunday, Dec. 30, 2012

Just noticed I had the date wrong yesterday - sorry.

Resting - Resting - Resting. Only changes I have noticed is my fingers hurt cause it feels like my fingernails are in overdrive growing. They are very long and hard. Going to get Ran to trim them for me. My jaw line and my teeth hurt - what's up with that.

Ran is taking care of me and Ozzie - he is the BEST! HE cooks, he cleans, he does laundry, he hugs and understands. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!

Love to you all today -
Marsha

Saturday, Dec, 30, 2012

I have not been hiding this time just not doing well at all. NO energy or strength at all. I finally gave in and called LRCC. They said come right in. So yesterday I spent 4 1/2 hours getting IV's. Blood work showed white cells down to 500 (they should be at 1500). Dehydration also added to my issues. Unable to be around crowds and no work until maybe Wednesday or Thursday. They also called me in an antibiotic to stop on they way home and start taking immediately. Also call if any fever 100.5 or higher even if during the night. CALL IMMEDIATELY.

So like I said I have just not been doing well. Randy has shortened my leash - he does everything for us. I hate that but I love him for helping me so much.

Will keep you posted.
Marsha

Christmas Eve, 2012

Merry Christmas to each of you and your family.

We are doing good. Found out yesterday about PAIN and WEAKNESS. I don't have much of any strength and the pain travels throughout my body. It will be in my jaw and then it will travel to my hip and stay there for several minutes. Then it will move to another spot.

 I did a little wrapping and then tried to bake some last minute cookie bars. Well the room started to get dark so my wonderful husband put me on the chaise. I started to shiver - he wrapped me in two blankets and I fell asleep and slept for several hours. He finished my baking and kept watch (Ozzie was at my side the whole time too.)

Didn't eat much of anything yesterday. I promised to try and get some protein in today. Have to work till 1:00 today. Don't worry - Randy will be close by I am sure. We have our family party tonight so a nap will be set for this afternoon.

We are so blessed to have each of you, our support team in our lives. Your encouragement and love is so special to each of us. We feel your love and prayers each and every day. May God bless each of you for the ending of 2012 and the new year which lies ahead.

Our Journey Continues Together...
Love - Marsha and Randy

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Doing good. Had to make one trip to Publix yesterday morning. Went early before crowds. Tired out quickly - thank goodness for a short list to go by. Back home, rested all day. Felt bad about doing that at first but each time I tried to do something I would get shaky so I gave in a stayed in my recliner most of the day.

No major pain or other side effects with my new meds. No this is from answers to all of your prayers for me.

Love you guys and girls out there.

onward...
marsha

Closing December 20, 2012

Almost 9:00 and no ill effects from my new meds. Saw Dr Nakka also today and she said all my blood work is looking good. Heart report from yesterdays scan was good.

My little chemo room was already reserved for us with balloons and Happy birthday banner across the front. Everyone was so kind even other patients were stopping and saying happy birthday and encouraging me on my recovery.

I didn't sleep much last night and today I found out it was the steroid (decadron). It keeps you awake.SO tonight I will take a sleeping pill cause I have had 4 of those little pills today and one drip line of it too.

I am wired up to say the least. Think I will get in there to "wrap central" and get all of my gifts wrapped and under the tree.

Thanks for all your well wishes and prayers - we could feel each one all throughout the day.

Much love to you all.
Be blessed I know I am with all of you in my life.
Onward.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Happy Birthday to US (me and Randy) today.

Not exactly the way we wanted to spend our birthday - at the Cancer Center. But as always we will be together and Chuck will be with us. Already had a birthday call from Isaiah before school.

The heart scan I had yesterday was not painful at all. The Technician was the same one I had when I started my treatments back in September. He is AWESOME. He had to get a vein and I was very upset he could not use the port. But he explained why and he went in the main vein in my wrist. I NEVER FELT the stick at all. I was so happy.

I am still apprehensive about new meds. I started the steroids yesterday. Side-effects are increased appetite, weight gain (do they not know who I work for)lol. The new chemo meds side effects are fatigue, weakness, and pain. Hopefully they won't be too bad.

Time to get myself in gear - I know you all are out there praying for us. We feel your love and support. May God bless each one of you.

Marsha and Randy

Tuesday, Dec 18, 2012

It's another day.

I am feeling good this morning. Ran and I went to bed early and I slept all night. Had some steak and mashed potatoes at Manny's. Yummy is all I can say. Small glass of wine and I was well fed and rested. No thoughts of chemo at all. YEAH!

Still a little concerned about new medicine coming on Thursday but I will not worry about that TODAY!

Staying focused on the moment. And right now my moment is good.

Monday, Dec. 17, 2012

I have again been hiding out. The sadness which has embraced our nation has been a hard thing to overcome. I have not been on my computer or phone. I have not watched TV. I am not trying to hide from the world and stick my head in the sand. I just have not been dealing well with this much sadness.

WE pray for those families and our country.

I have a heart test this Wednesday at 7:00 am to see the effects of chemo on my heart. I start taking new meds after the test to get ready for Phase II treatment on Thursday. I am worried about taking new meds as I am aware of what my other meds were doing to my body. I had made adjustments and knew what to expect each time.

I know you are out there praying for us. THANK YOU so MUCH.

Sending our love to each of you. Have a blessed day.
Marsha

Wednesday, Dec. 12, 2012

Having a feel good day!!!

Hope You Gals and Guys are too.

Marsha

Saturday, December 8, 2012

I have had a very rough week and I think it's FINALLY OVER!!! Yeah!!

Getting my energy level up after a full day of rest on Friday. Randy and I went to watch Isaiah's basketball game last evening. We went to get some bar-b-que (not for me I had chicken (plain). Then Isaiah ask for dessert. This was YES from me - we went to the cookie store. The boys all had cookies - I went across the street to the yogurt shop and had Pumpkin Pie frozen yogurt! YUMMY!!! NO BAD YUCKY FEELING!!
I was a happy woman. Seems that cookies are the same texture as bread to me - YUCKY! Sure do hope this goes away when I am done with my treatments. Some good bread and butter is something I miss.

I do see all of your post/comments so please continue to send them. We love you all out there in my (our) support land.

Have a wonderful weekend. I will continue to REST UP!!

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

SURPRISE - FLOWERS

I am still feeling the effects of last weeks treatments.  Randy to the rescue of my "heart". He surprised me with flowers at work yesterday. He is my HERO.

Today is my last work day of this week. YEAH! Three days off for rest and recovery.

Onward

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Tuesday wasn't much better. Felt sick all day and had no energy at all. Worked my shift in Lakeland, then home at 7:30 and off to bed. This is because of all the meds building up in my body. Drinking lots to get them out but it takes longer each time. Then the energy level is bad.

Today is a new day in the journey so here we go again.

Onward!

Monday, December 4, 2012

Honestly - not feeling good today at all. I know I did too much yesterday and was very shakey by the end of my day.

 I ate a banana yesterday and it actually tasted like a banana. After lunch I tried to eat an apple and it just tasted like celery for all I knew. THAT'S JUST WRONG. Trying to stay positive but today I just don't want anything to eat, drink or do anything.

Morning news talking about bad flu season - scary!!

I love all of you out there - thanks for listening to me whine this morning.

Onward

Sunday, December 6, 2012

Doing OK from treatments. This was the END of PHASE ONE!!! YEAH!!!

Able to do a little Christmas decorating yesterday. Only put out a few things so far. Randy helped me with everything. RESTED the rest of the day.

Starting Phase Two on Dec. 20th. but I do have 4 pills steroids to take the day before. NOT looking forward to taking those drugs. My face is round enough today.

Hey - did I say I have white peach fuzz on top of my little round head. ITS WHITE. Just so it comes back I don't care if it's purple or pink. Hopefully this last treatment won't kill it back off.

Onward we go.

Friday, November 30, 2012

Shot Day afternoon. Need to get my booster shot today. Goes in my tummy but doesn't hurt YEAH!!

This will end Phase I. YEAH!!!

Need to rest today. We have tickets to a play tonight at the local Theatre. I am so looking forward to this.

When we arrived home yesterday we discovered my clothes closet shelf unit had pulled off the wall - what a mess. All my hanging clothes and folded clothes on the shelf are in the floor. So NOT good.
Ran fixed it for me last night and I will work on this slowly today. Time to get my donation bin out and give away some tops and dresses I will never get to wear again. All part of the journey.

Love you girls and guys.
Onward

Thursday, November 29, 2012

TREATMENT DAY - UGH!
Awake at 4:45 this morning. Not able to sleep - just laying there so time to get up and have coffee.

Saw Dr Nakka today - she said all reports looking good. Heart and lungs are good. Today is the last treatment for Phase One. We will start Phase Two on Dec. 20th and continue with our 3 week rotations. She will be giving me Taxel and Herceptin together. The Herceptin will be in a small dosage to start with. This phase will again be four treatments so we will go into March. In March we will start Herceptin for one full year.

Chuck is with us again today. He helps keep Randy occupied. The cookie lady has been here to my station three times. She seems to like taking care of my boys. Randy looked at me and said "you want a chocolate chip cookie today" "weather you eat it or not". lol.

This place is so nice. My team of nurses are wonderful. They seem to be very busy today due to the holiday last week. Lots of people are sick. Everyone is working like busy bees.

I know you are out there praying for us. Thanks for your support, prayers and the comments you send our way.

Our journey continues.

November 28, 2012

Only two words "dreading tomorrow"

Happy Thanksgiving

We are so thankful for our family and friends who are helping us with our journey. May God bless each of you.

We are at our favorite island for the weekend. Turkey is in the oven. Just resting and watching the beautiful water shimmer in the sun.

Love to you all.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Can't Deal with It.
It's been one of those times again when I have been hiding. Seems like some days cancer takes control of my every thought. I HATE THAT!!!!

Oh that felt better just saying it and !!!!! it.
I did eat too much Italian food - my favorite kind of food ever. So for now no pizza or pasta. Unless it's plain noodles.

And I don't care for cold windy days. My little bald head gets cold quick. Yes, I do wear hats and scarves but at home I don't always have my head covered.

Steve and Joy came for a visit this weekend and I didn't cover my head. Steve (my big brother) said it was ok with him - he is very proud of me. And Joy - well I can't say THANK YOU ENOUGH to her for how she has helped me. She is my sounding board most every day. She lets me vent, cry, talk it out. She is always there for me and I love her dearly.

I love ALL of you out there in my cyberspace support group. YOU ARE AMAZING and Randy and I love each of you.

Onward....our next visit for chemo is Nov. 29 and 30. The last treatment for Phase One.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

SLEEPY TIME HIT!!!
Guess I was exhausted and didn't know it. I have worked this week and struggled but continued. When I came home last night from work Randy had these words - go take your hot shower. I did and curled up in his lap and that was at 8:00 pm and then he put me to bed sometime and then I woke up this morning rested. I don't even know when he came to bed. I need to work today but I feel rested. I plan on taking it very easy today.

Another new day to learn about my body and what I can and can't do.

Tuesday, Nov. 13, 2012

We are doing good since treatment last week. The nausea has not been bad this time. Chuck and Randy BOTH are making sure I am drinking plenty of liquids to flush out my system.

I attended my first Woman to Woman support group last evening at the Regency Center here in Winter Haven. Such nice ladies there. Most are 10 plus year survivors. And they are so supportive to us new kids in the fight. I felt welcomed and comfortable sharing my struggles.

I am still learning I need to REST MORE on the weekends after treatment. You just have to put yourself first.

Thank you all again for praying for us as we go onward.

Sunday, Nov. 11, 2011

Doing good these past few days from treatment. I KNOW YOU ARE PRAYING FOR ME (US). Cause I have not had any ill effects from chemo. I did have one bout of sleepless time this morning at 1:30 AM. Finally back to bed at 3:00. But no nausea!!!

Randy and I spent a great time yesterday with Chuck in Lakeland. We were at a friends archery shop in Lakeland. Chuck and Randy enjoyed the indoor archery range. I enjoyed watching and spending time with Tammy, Nathan and Matthew. Had chick-fila for lunch (thanks Chuck). It was delicious.

Our family has been touched by cancer again. Chuck's father-in-law was told this past week he has colon cancer. Surgery is being planned. Please pray for Linda and her mom as they help him during this difficult time.

Love to you all = onward.

Friday, November 9, 2012

RESTFUL NIGHT once I went to bed at 11:30. No issues so far. Had to take  my meds this morning (Dexamethasone) twice a day for 4 days. And Amends this one is once a day for day 2 and day 3. I think these have a negative effect on me.

We go get my shot at 1:00 this afternoon. Thankfully they don't hurt.:) But Phase one only has one more session. I won't have to get a shot in my tummy after this session ends.

Then we start phase two in December also every three weeks.

Some encouragement I heard yesterday was my hair "MIGHT" come back during phase two. That would be awesome. My nurse said it would again depend on how my body reacts to the meds.

ONWARD!!

Home and doing good.

They were really full in the chemo theatre this morning and one nurse was on vacation. We didn't get home until 2:30. I climbed right in bed and slept two hours.
Chuck met us over there today. He was a big help keeping Randy entertained during the long wait.
I am drinking lots of liquids to flush this stuff out of my system. We go back at 2:30 tomorrow for my booster shot.
Thanks for all your prayers today. I can feel your love and support.
Onward.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

CHEMO DAY :(.  Not able to sleep last night and what sleep I got was weird dreams. I dreamed if I got out of bed a lion was there to attack me. It was so real I asked Randy to get out of bed and bring me a much needed sleep hat cause I was so cold. Note - if you want to sleep warm try wearing a sleep hat - they will keep you toasty (even if you have hair). just saying...:)

Tried to eat some breakfast this morning. May be the only thing I do eat today.

I know you are out there especially today praying for us. THANK YOU. WE LOVE YOU ALL.

Onward....chat later today to update.

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Wonderful day at work. Finished the day with dinner out with hubby. Both had wine and light fare for dinner. Not really looking forward to tomorrow but I know it's for my best interest.

Onward.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

WONDERFUL WEEKEND AWAY
Randy and I escaped to our favorite island and enjoyed time together. We talked and shared concerns, laughed, fished, napped and ate great seafood.

Now we are back in the swing of working and worrying. I am trying to stay in the moment and not think about my upcoming treatment. Treatment number 3 of 4 in phase I is this Thursday. Please PRAY I WON'T BE SO SICK THIS TIME afterward. I know you are out there supporting US. Love  and hugs back to each one of you.

Our Journey continues.

Saturday October 3, 2012

Another day in paradise. I have slept so soundly down here I think I'll just stay here forever. So restful and calming. Wish you could see the sun coming up over the water. It's so beautiful. Thank you Lord for my eyes to see and ears to hear. I am so blessed.
My captain has gone fishing just before daylight. He is in de-stress mode.

Friday, Nov. 2, 2012 Paradise

My Captain (randy) and I escaped to Little Gasparilla Island after work on Thursday. We arrived on the island and were all settled in time to see the beautiful orange moon rise over the water. Quiet this morning before sunrise. This is paradise. Able to sleep all night. Thank you Lord for blessing us so much. My Captain is on the water already at his favorite fishing spot. His time to de-stress. As I continue my journey I am so thankful he is by my side.

Wednesday, Oct. 31, 2012

HUMP DAY - YEAH!
Day three of a four day work week. I'm making it.
Had a wonderful surprise at work yesterday - dear friends back here for the winter months stopped in at Lakeside Village to say hello and brought me pretty "pink" roses. Brenda IS a breast cancer survivor.
Started bedtime out in the living room and ended in the bedroom. Usually I start out in the bedroom and end in the living room. Slept better and longer. May try again tonight.
Working all day in Winter Haven today. The journey is long some days.
BE blessed.

Tuesday, October 30, 2013

Just came from Cancer Center. No treatment today just getting my schedule set through the month of February. Also in to pick up a pretty new bra.
Feeling okay today but for some reason I could not sleep again. I was up at 3:30. Think I will just start out in the living room tonight and see if I can stay asleep with the tv on.
Onward.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Monday again - time seems to be flying by each day. But today is a good day. No issues with nausea at all today. Had some homemade turkey chili for lunch and a salad. Wearing one of my pretty turbans today - too windy didn't want to loose my wig. lol.

My song of the week is My Anchor Holds by Ray Boltz.  Thanks for sending this one to me Clark - I had forgotten that one. Love listening to it again.

Continuing the journey...

Sunday, October 28,2012

Doing great these past few days. Seems the further out from treatment the better I feel.
I was able to meet a support group leader here in Winter Haven on Friday afternoon. I plan on attending the next session. They meet at the Regency Women's Center the second and fourth Monday each month. My dear friend Mary P suggested I try Propel water grape flavor and I loved this. Helped me so much cause we have to drink, drink, drink to get the meds out of our system.
My journey continues. Love you guys.

Thursday, October 25, 2012 long weekend

Have been sick since treatment last week. Nausea has been a bad thing. It has taken me till Wednesday to feel a little good. Today I am much better and able to eat. Working this week has been a bear on Monday and Tuesday. Better to work though. On I tried going in our bedroom to get dressed and every time I would just curl back up and lay there. Had to give myself a little pep talk and get it together. Today IS a Better Day. Seems my system takes about five days to adjust to my treatments. More to learn on my journey.
Love you guys our there in blog land.

Nothing Taste Right UGH!!

I want my food to taste good again. Even peanut butter taste terrible. This is so not fair.

Okay moment of weakness. I will get through this DAY.

Monday, October 22, 2012 Chuck to the rescue!

Because of all the nausea this weekend Chuck and Isaiah came to the rescue with three containers of my Preggie Pop Drops. We were able to locate them at the Baby's R Us in Brandon. THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! These help me get through without taking the pills (they just make me sick too).

I am learning to eat very bland food the first 4 or maybe now 5 days after chemo. Love the plain smashed potatoes and plan rice. Plain roasted chicken was a good thing too. I am going to try some plain pasta this week. I know it's not on WW plan but for now I will just survive as I can.

Thanks again for all your prayers and thoughts - I CAN FEEL THEM!!

Sunday, October 21,2012

Been feeling bad for the weekend. Have to take meds at home after the chemo and they are not tummy friendly pills. Sick yesterday afternoon and into the night. I only have one more pill to take at dinner tonight. Then hopefully I will be on the upside again. Cooking some plain chicken and potatoes for late dinner.
Thanks so much for staying on my journey with us. Can't do this alone.
My quote for this week is "I can be changed by what happens to me. I refuse to be reduced by it" Maya Angelou.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Well you know how I started the day yesterday. It unfortunately was the way I finished my day. Randy took me over for my booster shot at 1:00 and we were in an out in 20 minutes. YEAH!  We drove back to WH and decided we needed to eat lunch. Went to Rick's for a bar-b-que sandwich. Something I have enjoyed recently. WELL not so much anymore. Ran went back to work and I went to do 2 errands. Wore myself out really fast. Took Ozzie for a needed potty walk and that was then end of my day. I started the nausea and throwing up and stayed on the couch till Ran made it home at 7:00. Log day for him too.

No more Rick's for me for a LONG TIME.  It was not their food it was the chemo. So give them a try if you like good food.

I only had to get up once last night and was able to sleep most of the night.

Today is Isaiah's last football game and yes I am going to attend. I will deal with any complications afterwards.

The journey has some ups and downs but we continue. Have a Blessed Day!

Friday October 19, 2012 VERY Early

Been awake with nausea since 3:30. Took a pill and ate some crackers and using a preggie pop drop. All do seem to be working. Would rather be sleeping but listening to iPod music instead. Trying not to wake up Randy. Ozzie and soft kitty are with me in my comfy spot in the living room. More later in the morning think I will try to sleep here.

Thursday October 18, 2013 second session

Completed my second session with no issues at all. Took my blood first thing and we had to wait for results before proceeding. Finally at 11:00 I got the ok from Dr Nakka. Finished up at 1:30.
Chuck came to stay with us today. Wonderful surprise. He arrived at the same time we did. He met some of my nurse team. He and Randy both had lots of questions about EVERYTHING. I started calling them my two curious cats. Chuck said one of my meds looked like cherry cool aid.
I have been awake since 1:30 so I am done for the day. Nap time starts now.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

WORD OF THE DAY - "PERKY"  LOL  All I can say is "I feel pretty again".  Can't wear them again today cause I wore them all day yesterday. But my self esteem was through the roof yesterday. Felt like a girl again.  Have to get used to the weight again.

Have a wonderful day and blessed day! I know I will.

Tuesday, Oct. 16, 2012 I lost . . .

My hair - did you find it. LOL  Finally happened. Got up yesterday with a small patch missing. By the end of the day I had patches everywhere.  That was  - I don't know what to say. It was painful, and emotional. Hard to explain. Randy helped me get all cleaned up and then we just cuddled and watched tv. I still have my eyebrows and eyelashes. He reminded me to stay prepared because they should come out too.

It's a new day - my journey continues.

Monday, October 15, 2012 Hiding Again

I have been hiding out again, I kinda figure if I hide it will go away and I won't have to go have my chemo treatment this week. That's stupid cause if I don't go I won't get better. It's not so scary now knowing what to expect but the fact they put in such "bad" good meds in my body IS scary. I don't even like to take asprin.

Oh well I know one thing for sure - you guys are out there praying for me - Thank You SO MUCH!
And the journey continues.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

PREGGIE POP DROPS are the BEST thing for nausea. I heard about this magical little pop while watching the Food Network. Good Eats was doing a piece on lollipops and apparently these two physicians decided to help their patients with morning sickness and CHEMO NAUSEA! I went all over town looking at the drug stores and health food stores. Target and Walgreens are listed but not in the stores. Must order on line. Well my wonderful husband again to my rescue order me these little pops. They came in the mail yesterday and I needed them big time. THEY WORK WONDERFUL FOR ME!!! So, spread the word to your friends and loved ones if they are having any issues with nausea order them on Amazon.com. I think I will order a case of them. lol just getting prepared. I had a great nights rest last night so thanks to those who are praying for my sleep habits to improve. Well onward for the day. May yours be blessed. Marsha

Monday, October 8, 2012

I was up at 1:30 this morning BUT I'm just saying "I feel good dunna dunna do. I feel good! :) hope you do too.

Sunday, October 7, 2012 CAKE!!

I ATE CAKE and it was DELICIOUS!!! Just what the doctor (me) ordered. No ill effects from it at all. I have been eating good and healthy protein and fruits and veggies. But, I have been losing weight. Not a lot but a little every day. Yesterday I just wanted cake. I was going to make the chocolate cake with canned pumpkin that we make for Weight Watchers but for some reason my chocolate cake mix was not in the pantry. I did have a butter cake mix and chocolate frosting. YUMMY is all I can say. I know it's the little things some days that make us SMILE. We did attend the Homecoming Game for Isaiah's Brandon Cowboys. We had to play the Bears (who had not lost a game). It was another loss for us but my QB was awesome and he always has the best attitude. Win or lose he plays with his whole heart. And he was all in pink. Pink mouth-guard, pink wrist band, long pink socks and he had mom make his shoes pinks too. Great support for Breast Cancer Awareness start. They even paint the lines on the field PINK. I have my new wig to start wearing. My hair was very dry and brittle so I chose to have Wendy take it down in a buzz. Isaiah and Chuck rubbed my head yesterday after the game. We were over by their car talking and Randy said "check out" Mimi's haircut. So, I took off my hat and he and daddy rubbed my head. Chuck said they needed to do that too. Papa said he was going to do it too. Isaiah said feels a little funny. I teased him about just spraying his hair pink too. He was all for that but can't go to school with pink hair. We all had a good laugh and it was a good way to break the ice about Mimi having no hair. MY BOYS ARE MY BIGGEST TEAM SUPPORTERS AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH FOR IT. I love you ALL - Have a blessed Sunday.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Been sorta hiding out again. Just been reflecting on things. I have heard from many of you via posts and emails through the week = I appreciate each of you so much. Please CONTINUE to do so even if you don't hear back from me right away. Two friends shared with me this week the following: "Focus on what you have already accomplished not on what still lies ahead of you...." this was important to me the day I read this cause I was thinking "I have a year of this to go." Will this ever end?" Then a dear friend sent me a song to listen to by Matt Redmond "Never Once" This has fed my soul and spirit so much these past few days. I can't listen to it enough. So please continue to reach out to me = I read all of your cards, emails, notes over and over. I/we can not get through this without each of you sending your thoughts and love and prayer support. May God bless each of you as I KNOW HE IS BLESSING ME through this time. Blessings to you our dear friends and family.

Wednesday, Oct 3, 2012 Yucky

Well, I guess it had to catch up with me sooner or later. Felt nausea all afternoon at work yesterday with some weakness. My loving hubby took such good care of me when I finally arrived home at 7:30 pm. He is JUST THE MOST WONDERFUL HUBBY EVER!! That's enough of that yucky stuff. Slept all night with no problems. Planning to work today as scheduled in WH. I chose to have a GREAT DAY today.

Tuesday, Oct 2, 2012

I should say "SALTY" Tuesday. All I can taste this morning is my apparently very salt dinner from Elenea's last night. This is an amazing little Cuban Cafe on Edgewood Drive. Skirt Steak, black beans, and rice AND fried plantains. DELICIOUS!! Trust me I did NOT eat all of the food served to me on my plate. TOO MUCH!! But I wanted to get chicken and yellow rice but it is one of their best sellers and they had sold out already. I know I should had selected soup and 1/2 a sandwich but my eyes caught site of the other plates customers already had. Now I feel so salty I think Randy had a salty kiss this morning. Will have to do better on getting control of my eating habits. But seriously if you are over in Lakeland and want some great Cuban food give them a try. The shot in my belly was dare I say it - EASY - I never even felt the needle going in. My Nurse, Dottie, is wonderful. So far no pain in my bones. AND I DON'T HAVE A PILL TO TAKE THIS MORNING AT ALL. No meds to take until next chemo session on the 18th. YEAH!! Yuck - I think my coffee taste like salt. Sorry funny mindset this morning I guess. Just wait for the chemo fog brain to come. LOL. I think I have had that already.

Monday Oct 1,2012

Had a weak feeling day all Sunday and very cold. Stayed in sweats and socks all day. Kinda shakey and some weakness feeling.
Just got to work at 10:00 this morning. Had to go in for my first "booster" shot in my tummy. This will help with keeping my white blood cells from getting too low. Only thing it will make my bones hurt. Oh well gatta do it right! As always my wonderful Ran was right there to hold my hand.

Saturday, Sept, 29, 2012

New Day - Made it through the night. I did have one bout of sleeplessness at 12:30. Tried reading - I feel asleep but Randy got up to check on me and work me up. So, back to reading. Decided to take half of a pain pill to sleep. Success! able to sleep until 7:00 am. Had pills to take this morning with food. Hope fully they work. I choose to think they will be good to me today. I am trying to go watch Isaiah play football. Not allowed out in the sun without full coverage and plenty of cool water. I promise I will take care. Love to you all out there - I feel you love. Marsha and Randy

Friday, continued

Oh did not want to forget the Cookie Lady came by for Randy. Warm Choc Chip and White Choc Macadamia Nut. And Star Bucks Coffee. He was good to go. I think it was a little past 11:00 when we started all the meds. One was the color red-orange. Not to big of a bag but kinda creepy color. Just right for Halloween. Then the major player was introduced. We came home and had a bowl of home-made chicken noodle soup and we both crashed on the sofas. I just had a hot shower (cause I could not shower last night)and I feel tired as I knew I would so I will sign off and curl back up with Ozzie, Soft-Kitty and Fred for a nap before Randy comes back home. This truly will be a long journey for me. As the last phase will take one full year. I know you guys won't stop praying for us no matter how long this takes. Love to you all Marsha and Randy

FINALLY CHEMO , Friday, Sept. 28, 2012

My day started at 1:30 AM!! Could not sleep at all. Not because of worry or fear I just could not get comfortable to sleep. I am a tummy or side sleeper. I was getting close to sleeping on an angle on my left side, BUT then came the surgery last Friday for my port. Back to just sleeping on my back. UGH :( Well with all the changes to my chemo schedule yesterday we decided to leave the port accessed and just pad me up for the rest of the day and night. It never occurred to me how uncomfortable that was going to be. Needles to say, I could not sleep. Poor Randy, he tried to comfort me and I was trying not to keep him awake. I wound up in the living room on the chaise. Here came Ozzie (my little protector). After lying there just looking out the window for about 1 1/2 hours I tried to get back to the bed. After 15 minutes I went back to the chaise. Here came Ozzie and Randy this time. We decided to watch TV. Rolled back the selection thingy and watched that new show with Lucy Loo about Sherlock Holmes. It was good. When that was over my guys went back to the bedroom and went back to sleep. I continued to channel surf. Waited for the alarms to go off at 5:30. Went to RIS, in Lakeland to have my MUGA (picture) taken of my heart beats. The tech was very nice, he explained everything to us. I was Glad Randy was there cause by that time I was not very coherent. Long story short we were at the top of the list, main priority treatment. Still took 2 hours for the whole thing. 9:00 AM we arrive back at LRCC for treatment. Get signed in and get my heated chair and 2 warmed blankets. One cup of coffee and one blueberry muffin. Not sure of the points plus values for WW but I wanted it BAD. They test results were sent over for Dr Nakka to read and see how my heart baseline was beating. I had the green light to take the first of the $$$$ nausea pills. Had to wait an hour.

Thursday, Sept. 27, 2012 Chemo Day

Finally here - Chemo begins this morning.The Light of God surrounds me.The Love of God enfolds me.The Power of God protects me.The Presence of God watchers over me. Wherever I am God IS.on the Journey together.


Update we had to postpone chemo for one day. We need to get a baseline echocardiogram. One of my meds can be very hard on your heart so I will have an EKG/MUGA at 7:00 am in the morning. Then go straight to LRCC to begin my chemo.
Made it through the first injection at port site. This was a little freaky cause the area is still healing and bruised. Some swelling too. Pressure was a little intense bur it worked just like it needed to. The nurse left it set for use in the morning so I don't have to be stuck again.
I did go pick out and order my first wig. It's one of the hot colors for fall. Golden brown with highlights. Short and kinda full. Hope Randy likes it.if not guess I will wear hats and scarfs the whole time.
And so we are in a holding point today. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers we CAN FEEL each one. Love to each of you.

Wednesday Sept 26,2012

Keeping quiet these past few days. Guess I am trying to hide from the dreaded chemo monster. I know it is a necessary evil but doesn't make it any easier to do it.
One of our customers at the glass shop let a card stuck to the front door yesterday which said "I bet you're sick and tired of being sick and tired" it was a picture of a little puppy dog asleep with his pillow and blanket. Inside of card basically said to stay strong and hold on - this will get better.
Thanks for sending cards to us cause they Really HELP!
Much love to everyone.

Sunday, Sept 23, 2012

Ports are not that bad but not that great either. Can't wear just anything with stitches (2 sites). But this will protect my veins from the chemo and won't hurt as bad as starting an iv each time. Enjoyed the football game yesterday. Isaiah was QB for the entire game. We went into overtime and unfortunately we lost. Still an awesome game. Can't believe only three more days till my first session of chemo. Hard to believe this is really happening.

Saturday, Sept. 22, 2012

I am tired of pain...I am tired of not sleeping in a comfortable position (tummy). Okay, I am over it. A new day to live and enjoy how blessed I truly am. I have such a wonderful husband who is helping me get through this. I have a wonderful son who calls and comes as often as he can. I have wonderful friends who encourage me each day. I am not alone is this journey. I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!!:) PS - to CLG "Softkitty" is right with me each night to help me smile and sleep. :) Going to "try" to see Isaiah play football today. Don't want to miss this week cause next week will be very iffy for me to make it after my first chemo treatment. Go Cowboys!! Journey time..

Port is in

Here I am back at home resting for the remainder of the day. Went very well. Dr Howard was all done before I knew anything. HE did come and talk with us before hand but then the next time I saw his smiling face was when he was actually helping get me cleaned up at the incision sites. All good - I can even shower tomorrow. YEAH!!! Well time for a nap - promised Randy I would just get back to bed and rest. The Light of God surrounds me The Love of God enfolds me The Power of God protects me and The Presence of God watches over me and where ever I am GOD IS.

Friday, Sept 21, 2012

Up early headed to see Dr Howard again. Getting my port put in this morning at 7:00 am. at the Day Surgery Center on Dundee Road. Not looking forward to another surgery but this will be of great benefit for my chemo. I need to protect my veins. Wow this is early, Been a LONG time since I had to wake up this early for an appointment. I haven't had anymore trouble with leg cramps. Making sure to eat and drink plenty through the day. Times up gatta go...on my next road trip along the journey.

Wednesday, Sept. 19, 2012

Just getting up from a bad night. Not sure what was going on but for most of the night (10:20 pm) I had terrible leg cramps and in my feet too. Walked the floor for about an hour. This usually helps me "walk" them out. I had to take a mild pain pill before I could relax enough to sleep. After thinking through my day yesterday I did not eat or drink much of anything all day. Maybe that was what caused this. Not sure but today I will be sure to drink plenty of water and eat. I did make myself go over to LRCC and talk to Kim about new bras and prosthesis. She said I still have a little swelling. She also said I needed to wait until after getting my port and let it heal over before wearing a bra. We decided together to wait a full two weeks before official bra time. We talked about wigs and hats etc. I did get a few things to be ready. I was also able to me some of the staff in the chemo suite. And I met the cookie lady again...yummy chocolate with white chocolate chips. Well I need to start eating and drinking and getting ready for work....journey time.

Tuesday, Sept. 18, 2012

We had such a wonderful time at the Island. My wonderful husband took such great care of me. He packed for us, unpacked for us, did the shopping, cooking, house hold chores such as making the bed, laundry, dishes. All I had to do was rest and de-stress. I was back at work yesterday and made the whole day without much pain. Can't wait to be PAIN FREE one day. Today I am planning on getting fitted for the correct size bra. The sports bra has been good but I want a softer one. One that makes me feel more like a lady. I must admit I am wondering what a bra will feel like over the port site. I get my port this Friday morning. I know this will get better once the stitches heal. I know worry before needed. Well need to get Randy out the door for work.

Sunday, Sept 16, 20012

Resting so great at the island house. This is Paradise. Getting back in worry mode I guess. Time to write down my next set of questions. 1. Do I take first nausea pill before we leave for treatments? 2. Do I eat or drink breakfast before I leave home? 3. How long will my treatment actually take when administered. I have heard from others that it could take 1 hour or one lady said her treatment was 6 hours. I vote one hour. 4. Will I be sleepy during this or can I read? 5. What kind of top should I wear? Okay, I know these are not "biggy" questions but they are in my brain and won't go away. I will be making a phone call Monday morning. Back to resting and de-stressing.

Island-time Sept 14,2012

Resting comfortably at our favorite island retreat. Watched the sunrise and the pelicans start their morning flight. My captain enjoyed sunrise at his favorite fishing spot. We have enjoyed just being together walking and talking. Ran has been my cook and housemaid. He is making homemade cookies for us now. Not sure how they will taste but I will love them I know. More to follow.

Thursday, Aug. 13,2012

Worked three days this week. Yeah Me!! I confess the second day I was wiped out. Yesterday was much better. We did crash and burn at 9:15 last night. Slept good. Randy and I going to the island for a few days to hopefully rest, and DE-STRESS before our world starts to change again. I can't wait to get to my favorite spot on the porch looking out over the water. AS I was packing last night it was strange cause I don't have a swimsuit I can wear now. I did not know what to do - I kinda just kept pulling them all out of my drawer and saying no that won't fit, no can't wear that...will have to check out the new styles at the boutique (LRCC). Time to get busy - breakfast, dressing and hitting the road takes me longer to do everything. Can't keep "my Captain" waiting too long. I know he is READY for a break from all of this. the journey is continuing.

Tuesday, Sept 11, 2011

I worked yesterday for the first time. I made it!!! I was tired by the end of the day - cause I missed my nap time. :) The evening was WONDERFUL FUN - Very DEAR friends and I went to dinner. They gave me wonderful support and encouragement. Precious gifts and the precious LOVE AND SUPPORT. I love each of them (you) I know you are following my blog each day. I am going to work in our Lakeland store today. Going to take a pillow with me to put in my seatbelt for a little extra padding in the car. My Journey continues.

Sunday, Sept 9,2012

Sunday - Day of Rest. I love this! Went to Isaiah's game yesterday - HOT!!! even under a shade tent. Really took it's toll on me. But I do hate to miss watching Isaiah play. I am so humbled by dear friends watching the Stand Up 2 Cancer on Friday night launched a star for me. This is so awesome. I am doing really great. My arms are getting better and stronger. My task master hubby stays on me to exercise. Even when we walk Ozzie before bedtime he makes me walk and do arm circles. He is so wonderful. He does have a cold and you know how a cold can make you feel. HE ALWAYS HAS A SMILE FOR ME and A GENTLE BEAR HUG!! I AM going back to work this week. Monday morning here I come. Have to remember not to lift anything heavy. Thank You to all who have sent cards of encouragement. They always come just at the right time. They lift my spirits with every card I open. LUV YOU ALL and my journey continues.

Peaceful sleep, August 8,2012

WOW - Without all that padding I was able to sleep so much better. Still can't sleep on my side or tummy but oh so much better than before. My right arm does not seem as stiff and painful this morning. Trying to keep exercise going so I won't have lemphedema set in. I am so excited today I am going to try and go see Isaiah play football in Seffner. Hopefully no rain during our game time. Game is at noon. Need to rest up.

Good check-up today, Sept 7

Just home from seeing Dr Howard, my surgeon. Gave me a good check-up. As of now all incisions are looking good. The small area I was concerned with is just the very edge of the incision line and the muscle. The little bit of swelling should be gone very soon. Keep up with my arm exercise to help with this. I will see him on the 20th to get my port put in for chemo injections. This will help protect my veins. Best of all I was able to leave out the sterile padding and towels from my sports bra. Down to wearing just the sports bra home. YEAH!!! Have to be careful though since there is no protection to the site but YEAH!!! This feels so much better. So here we go down the road a little further. The Journey continues.

2nd Post-Op Visit today

hat Seeing Dr Howard today at 2:00. My left side is doing real good. My right breast incision is healing but I do have swelling still. All of the tape is now off - thank goodness!! Now I can wash really good. Not hard but good. lol.

Yesterday I had no energy. I had a bad headache in the night. Felt like somebody was bouncing a basketball in my ears.

Randy has a cold - trying so hard to not share it with me.

Well - guess I better get something done today. Need to plan clothes for doctor visit.

Chat later

Uneventful Day was nice

Wednesday was uneventful Day and I loved it. I did lots of reading on the American Cancers Society pages looking at hats, scarves, wigs, make-up and other things. Took a great nap with Ozzie (our real doggie), Fred (a gift from a good friend - my stuffed doggie) I named him after my surgeon and "Soft Kitty" a gift from another good friend. We all enjoyed the quiet time together.

Haven't needed any pain meds today. Took something to help me sleep last night. Had too much chemo info in my brain still so took sleep aid.

Well I think I will continue in the mood of quiet for the rest of the evening.

Chemotherapy is coming. . .

Our first visit to Lakeland Regional Cancer Center this morning.  Treated so kind by everyone we came in contact with. Right down to the cookie and coffee ladies taking good care of Randy.

Dr Nakka is wonderful. Good exam, great knowledge of what my case was about. Didn't mind questions by us during our discovery time.

Radiation is not an option for me due to the invasive cancer. We will begin chemo 1 month from surgery to give the body time to heal from the surgery itself. We will attend chemotherapy education classes so it won't be quite so scary when the sessions actually start. I will be given a port for injection site to protect my veins. I have bad veins - hard to get any needles to draw blood. They found this out for themselves cause I had to have lab work done today.

My first session of chemo will be 2 meds  (Adriamycin and Cyroxan) working together given 3 weeks apart for 4 sessions. Forgot to mention side effects will be hair loss and weakness/tiredness etc. I am hoping to stay somewhat normal through all of this. Chemo on Thursday and then have all weekend to build my strength up for working Mon-Wednesday. My WW friends/staff have been so great covering for me during this time. I appreciate them so much.

My second session of chemo will be 1 med given Taxotere for 4 weeks. The following day I will go back and receive and injection of Herceptin.

Following all of these sessions I will take Newlasta for a year. WELL that was a lot of information for me to try and remember but I can keep taking one day at a time. Lean on you my family and friends. You are
all such a great help to us. Randy did ask the dr for meds this morning. "What do you have for us husbands?" He us so strong and so gentle. I know I could not do this without his love and support. Please pray for him too he can't take away the hurt for me and he feels so helpless at times.
the Journey continues.

Sept 4, 2012 First Visit to Oncologist

Today is a new beginning to our battle. I realize more and more this is truly "our" battle. Randy has been right by my side each and every time. Facing the bandages off, staples out, helping with all aspects of my daily life. I love him so much.

Today we go and meet out medical oncologist and learn the game plan for our next phase. Will they scan and find where the cancer has spread to in the body? Then radiation? OR will they chemo the entire body to kill the cancer cells?  Some many questions I still don't know all the questions to ask or all the possible answers to them.

One thing I do know = I have great support with my family and our friends. I know you are out there praying for us. Please continue to pray for us especially today. I did not sleep last night - trying not to let worrying creep back into my heart.

Trusting -

The light of God surrounds me
The love of God enfolds me
The power of God protects me
The presence of God is with me = wherever I am God IS.

Marsha

Saturday, Sept 1, 2012

Yesterday was quite eventful for me. Got the staples out, learned some exercise techniques and got the BEST SHOWER EVER!! I'm just saying.

I am able to look at the incision site without cringing. Dr Howard did an amazing job for me. This morning the swelling is much better. I tried to get through the night with meds but by 12:30 I had to take something. The incision line was painful to the point of not sleeping. Will I ever get to sleep on my tummy again?? That is just the best sleep time for me.

Today is a new day - let's live it!

Out!!

Just came home from Dr Howard's office. Staples removed with minimal pain. Had one that hurt but the rest came out fine. He usually waits 10 days before removing them but with holiday weekend we went ahead. Scar looks good. Straight Line per my request.
Put steri-strips across the incision line. Then wrapped again. Sure did feel good to get the tight bandage off. This one is not as tight. In a sports bra for now. See Dr Howard again next Friday.
We see Dr Nakka my medical oncologist this coming Tuesday at 10:30 for the game plan. Please continue to pray for our decisions to be made.
Dr Howard suggested we do something for the weekend to get our minds off everything. May go to the island aka paradise. Not sure...

Lakeland Regional Cancer Center

Dr Nakka's appointment has been set. Tuesday, Sept 4th at 10:30. Getting our game plan. Wanted me there tomorrow BUT at the same time as my appointment to get these staples out....can't miss that appointment.

Today I seem to just be sleeping the day away. Tired - guess it's catching up with me again.

more later...

Thursday, Aug. 30, 2012

Spent my first day at home alone and didn't spend the day crying and feeling sorry for myself. Yeah Me!
Loving Randy stayed in touch even came home to fix my lunch. He is awesome! Chuck stayed in touch via IM's all day and came by on way home from work. My guys are so supportive. Chuck is worried about both of us I can tell.

Ran took me for a walk last night - that was wonderful to get out in the fresh air. We just strolled and enjoyed the night together.

Trying to keep positive attitude today again...keep praying my dear friends. I can feel them.

God is Good
God is Great
and God is IN CONTROL

Wed, August 29, 2012 FOUND

Went to the doctor yesterday to get bandage off and look for the first time.
I was so scared for the tape to be pulled off. Band aides blister my skin, and at times pull my skin off. So I was very afraid. The area under my arms is so sore already. Well Susie (nurse) was wonderful. She was so gentle. Dr Howard took out the drain tubes (not too bad). Guess I had not even thought of pulling them out. They did feel painful under my arms when he pulled them out of my chest.

I think the worst pain was when Dr Howard said the pathology report does show micrometastees (spelling??). Then the words treatment and chemo. All my records and reports are being sent to Dr. Nakka at the Lakeland Regional Cancer Center. They will be calling to set up my initial visit.

Randy and I were stunned to say the least. He is my rock. I am so blessed with the most wonderful caring husband in my life.

So we begin the second battle.

Losing some of the water/puffy ankles. Yeah!!

Been reading a little about micrometastases - too confusing for us. We'll just wait to talk with Dr Nakka about the next steps to take.

Sunday, Aug. 26, 2012

First morning home - work up in pain and tears. Could hardly brush my teeth for crying. Call me wimp - I don't care it hurts.

I have problems with glue -bandaids are bad to me. The  bandages are pulling my skin bad. All I can think about is when the doctor takes off my bandages. THIS IS GOING TO BE BAD!!! And I feel bad because that should be the last thing I have to worry about.

I will get through this I know.

Saturday, Aug. 25,2012

Finally home from the hospital. Had to stay an extra day due to my bp staying too low. Bummer. Had a bad time last night. Just tired of the hospital. Randy found me in tears this morning. All I will say is some people are born to be nurses and some people aren't.

Thank you all for keeping in touch with us. We love you all.

Bp improving

Finally got over 100. It was 103 over 54. Took IV line off finally. Hope to get to go home tomorrow.
Thank you all for your prayers and support for me and my family.
Pain is not too bad except drain tubes are bad at times. Going to the Doctor on Tuesday to get the tubes out and bandage removed. Staples out ouch!!! Help me get through that please.

Friday August 24

BP too low all night and this morning. Can't go home today Dr Howard said no today.

Randy and Chuck making me walk the halls to get some soreness out. Cause I met Mr Pain last night and he is Not nice.

Sleeping now

Marsha in her room. 827 b2. All good no cancer spread. She's sleeping. Thanks for all the prayers. Randy

Surgery complete

All went well with surgery! Marsha will give update later.

She is in surgery. will be about 1 1/2 hour. Will update when done , randy

Day 10, Aug. 23,2012

Surgery Day. Scared to death but...

"The Light of God surrounds me.

The Love of God enfolds me.

The Power of God protects me.

The Presence of God watches over me.

Wherever I am, God Is."

This is a quote from Robin Roberts of Good Morning America. She shared this in her mom's book just recently published. She shared this as her daily start as she struggles with her cancer.

I am continuing to trust these words for my life - I hope you my friends who read this will do the same for your daily struggles.

God has a plan for me and I trust Him.

Love to you - M

Aug. 22 continues

Just received call from hospital. Need to arrive at hospital at 8:00 am not the original time of 10:00 am.

Can this really be happening? No wine with dinner tonight. Bummer. I was looking forward to relaxing with blackberry sangria at dinner tonight. I just know it would help.

Day 9, Aug. 22, 2012

Slept a little last night. Not sure what kept me awake. Just the unknown I guess. And PAIN is coming.

 I looked at some pictures of a woman who had bilateral mastectomy. I wanted to be somewhat prepared at seeing the "site" before I see mine. Didn't want to FREAK OUT. I will say this has made me reconsider reconstruction for myself. So I told Randy I know what I want for my Christmas present.  I know more surgery and more PAIN but this is what I want.

I know I can get this done now but I want to be sure of killing the cancer first. Get through my treatments and get stronger.

Only one day left and then my whole world will change forever.

Day 8, Aug. 21, 2012

WOW - Had a good night sleep. Thank You - I know you are all praying for me - I can feel them.

Randy and I watched "The Hunger Games" last night. Not my kind of movie but I figured hey - need to get my mind on something else so I agreed. I went to bed at 11:30 not sure when he came to bed. BUT I work up for the first time at 6:00 this morning. I didn't dream about the movie or anything. I SLEPT ALL NIGHT! I :-) loved this!  Thank you for praying for me - Love to you all from M and R.

Labs and injection

Have to arrive by 10:00 for lab work and injection for the sentinel lymph node biopsy. Not looking forward to this. Radioactive dye into the nipple. OUCH!!!

Aug 20,2012 continued

Surgery date is this Thursday, 23rd at noon. I have to go earlier for an injection in radiology. Needed for lymph node biopsy.
And so we begin.

Day 7, Aug. 20, 2012

What a long night AGAIN. It is so hard to stop your mind from thinking about what's next. Am I making the right decisions? How bad will the pain be? How big will the scar be? Has it spread? What's next if it has spread?

Found myself singing = "Soft kitty, warm kitty, little ball of fur. Happy kitty, sleepy kitty, purr purr purr". IT HELPED me relax and fall asleep.

And let the day begin.

Day 6 Sunday, Aug. 19, 2012

Sunday - "MY" Day. I choose not to be controlled by breast cancer today. I am trying not to constantly think about what is to come.

Randy is helping = we are going bowling for a couple of hours. Then taking a long walk with Ozzie. Dinner with Susie, Evan and Nikki. Did NOT even think about counting points on my diet. We had "breakfast" for dinner. IT WAS AWESOME!!!

Day 5, Aug. 18, 2012

Football Today - Isaiah's game is at 12:00 and they are calling for rain.  I'll be seeing him for the first time since Chuck told him about my cancer. I am a little anxious about this first visit. But I know Isaiah will be my BEST prayer warrior.

Up since 2:30 - listened to Christmas music on my IPOD trying not to wake Randy. Ozzie is with me in the living room. He seems to sense something is up with mommy.

Day 4 Aug. 17, 2012

Did my pre-surgery haircut this morning. Wow it's really short but at least it's still there. . .for now. Randy said "it don't look bad". Ozzie even got his short grooming today.

Waiting for phone call today for my surgery next week.  

Ugh - Dr Howard has been in surgery all day - will be Monday before I know now.

UGH!!!

Day 3, August 16

I have made the decision to have Dr Fred Howard as my surgeon. I have requested him to work along side Dr Nakka of the Lakeland Regional Cancer Center for my Medical Oncologist.

I am planning to have bilateral mastectomy done. I will have to stay over night in the hospital. At the time of the surgery he will be looking at lymph nodes for the cancer spreading to other areas of my body. I pray this has not happened.

Suzie (Dr H's nurse) shared it would be much easier to have both done at the same time. She works closely with LCC staff/physicians. Shared I will love them.

I feel a peace after making the decision to have Dr Howard and LRCC be my team for the battle ahead. Many have asked why not Moffitt?  Randy and I would like to be closer to home for my future treatments.

Decisions Day 2 August 15, 2012

Wow - so many questions and so many thoughts. Some I voiced and some I keep to myself for now. I did contact others who have already walked this path. Many have shared good things and BAD things. Scary things. Dr Howard (my surgeon) has warned me about scary stuff being out there.

My good friend Mary has said to remember "everyone's case is different". Not to think just because someone else had a horrible experience doesn't mean I will have the same experience.

The Beginning

Tuesday, August 14, 2012 I was diagnosed with Invasive Lobular Breast Cancer.